Spent the whole day out running errands, so this counts as my first meal of the day. Na-sustain ako ng adrenaline, whew! #classic

Spent the whole day out running errands, so this counts as my first meal of the day. Na-sustain ako ng adrenaline, whew! #classic

Tags: classic

How about wanting to have someone feel giddy about this with? :’»

This book is sinfully good, i’m excited to find out the conclusion!

How about wanting to have someone feel giddy about this with? :’»

This book is sinfully good, i’m excited to find out the conclusion!

"We are all, everyone in this room, so fortunate."

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thelovenotebook:

Everything love

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Everything love

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"Love causes war and causes death, breaks souls and breaks lives. It runs people into the ground, makes them behave like moronic, immoral beasts, before it dances off, leaving only destruction in its wake—hearts blown wide open for the whole world to see.
Love puts the blame on the poor souls who succumb to it.
Love, that ultimate villainess. She makes examples of us all.
And yet we still come back for more.
We keep playing the role she gives us.
For one more chance to feel alive.
Love has made me a villain. But at least now, I don’t have to be misunderstood."

Currently reading: Love, In English by Karina Halle

My last hurrah for the holidays before tomorrow leaves me lesser time to read. ;)

Vital Sign by J. L. Mac
Alexander McBride Sadie Parker +Jacob Parker
It’s surprising how stories with the same premise, but have been told in many different styles still send me reeling without convincing myself to appreciate it. I have seen this in movies and heard many touching stories with the themes alike yet it riveted me like i haven’t heard it before. J. L. Mac knows her way to inflict heartbreak and mend it into oblivion afterwards, she makes it impossible to get away from her books unscathed with her heartfelt writing and skillful story-telling.
'Vital Sign' is a story with a very long journey in a considerably short span of time, it is squeezed into details and abundant with raw emotions that will hold you captive like it has taken charge of another life for you. Zander and Sadie's story is dominated by grief, guilt, regret and dwelling in the past which gives them only momentary happiness. They weren't the quintessential couple and i bet no one will dare choose the path they're dealt with. However, theirs is the story that in the end will strengthen your faith to fate and believe that second chances are not so hard to find if you only seek for it wholeheartedly. And in other cases, this book can help someone who's in the same shoes as Sadie or Zander. It's truly tormenting but it was worth it.
Sadie lived by her name for more than two years after she lost her husband on a shooting incident at their very own home, she’s a very very sad and broken woman. She was self-destructing and barely living, until her and Jake’s parents forced her into meeting her deceased husband’s organ recipients thinking it will make the grieving process easier for her. But it wasn’t… it wasn’t until she met the man who now has Jake’s heart. The man who was alive and well in exchange of her husband’s death. The last man whom she should fall for, is the same key to her rebirth.
Alexander McBride feels like he did not deserve a second chance at life, but his Governor father worked his powers for him to be on top of the list of organ recipients. And now he has to deal with another guilt of meeting the widow of the man whose heart is currently beating on his chest, but Zander did not expect that she’s the woman he’s been waiting for 29 long years to be with forever.
They are both being chased by the demons of their past and while Zander is already in the midst of moving on, Sadie’s still angry of everything. Even if they find it hard to admit, they share the same struggles and for this, their need for each other is palpable. Sadie’s afraid of loving someone besides Jake, she doesn’t want to find his replacement nor rebuild memories with another man, she cannot let go of the mere fact that her and Jake’s story has come to an end. That was what put Zander’s feelings to a test and his patience consumed so he’s already preparing to deal with the heartbreak that comes with falling for Sadie. But not wanting to really let her go, he then agreed with her need for distance and time, only because she promised to find her way back to him once she’s made herself whole again.
Even if this book depressed me for the most part, i never once doubted the happy ever after. The spark of connection from their very first meeting—even before they knew what part they played in each other’s lives—gave away that this is a love story that transcended all the odds of a very strange force of fate.
While and after reading this, it’s so difficult not to want to know Jake and Sadie’s story too which is the same thing with Zander’s history. I feel like there’s so much more hidden things meant to be revealed. Either way, this book is brilliant just the standalone way that it is.
D x ——————————- Noteworthies: How am I supposed to let go of Jake if there are pieces of him still out there, living on in some perfect stranger? I am utterly and completely heartbroken that I had a fairytale life and in a split second it was stolen from me.
“So that’s where I am, Sadie. I’m tired, and I’m scared, and I’m on the edge of giving in, but I’ll hold on because I know that you’ll come through this. If I could take this from you, I would. I’d take that hurt in a heartbeat. But I can’t. All I can do is push, and squeeze, and corner you until you give in and come out of this to scream to the world that you’re still here, dammit. You may be worse for the wear, but you’re still my baby girl and you made it.” The connection I feel to this woman was so instant. I’ve never felt anything like it. Something about her, about me, about the situation that we find ourselves in—if I believed in fate, I’d say that’s exactly what it is. If fate exists, if it’s real, I would say that somehow our journeys are the same.
“Having gone through loss like that, you can kind of spot one of your kind even in a crowd. I lost my son when he was only twelve years old. I know what it’s like walking around holding on so tight to those memories because you think you may lose them.”
“Well, it’s difficult to explain but it’s like this. You can hold onto those memories, honey, but don’t hold too tight. No need for that. You hold them too tight you’ll crush ‘em, and then they get to be something ugly. Somethin’ miserable. They become something that hurts you ‘stead of something that helps you. What you don’t realize is that whether you hold onto ‘em or not, they’re still there with you. Right there in your heart. They’re a part of you. With every breath you take, those memories are alive and well and no one ‘cept God in heaven can take that from you.”
I want her body. I want her mind. I want her heart. In many ways, I feel like it’s already mine to claim. In my sick fucking head I feel like Sadie Parker has always been mine for the taking, like she was made for me, intended for me.
Alexander McBride is both my fallen angel delivering me to hell’s gate and the blinding light that serves as my guide, my deliverance to the hereafter.
Sadie Parker makes me want more. More hours in the day. More things to make her smile. More life. More of her.
Some newly discovered part of me hopes that I’m the main character in Sadie’s ending. Not her happily ever after, because she’s already had one of those, but maybe I can be her second chance at happiness. I think she could be mine. I’d bet on it.
“I’ve always prided myself on being a man who can predict things. There are no curve balls as far as I’m concerned. Everything I do, I see coming. Except you. I never expected this. I never expected you.”
“I saw you on that beach and I knew that you had to be mine. I had to have you. I knew that you were who I was looking for. I would have waited for you forever if I had to. Whether by design or just plain dumb luck, I’m the one who was meant to find all the pieces of you so that I might put them back together. Let me put you back together, Sadie. I need you,”
"I’ve been fighting against the ghost of him every goddamned day, Sadie! Every day! It’s more than I can handle. I’m not Jake! I’m no saint. I don’t lead some virtuous life full of good deeds and friends and family who would vouch for me at the drop of a hat. I’m fighting an invisible enemy that I know I have no hopes of defeating, but here I am. I’m begging you for one ounce, one fucking iota, of hope!”
"You think I don’t hate this too? You think I don’t hate that I’m not the most deserving man to get another shot at a life that I’ve already fucked up? You think I don’t feel like shit for having his heart and now falling for his wife? You’d be sorely mistaken. I hate myself for it every time I look in the mirror. Every time I close my eyes and imagine you next to me for the rest of my existence. Every time I have to resist the urge to take your hand, bring it to my lips, and swear on my life that I can make you happy given half the chance. Every time.”
“I won’t let you take the easiest, quickest route out of my life all because you’re too damn scared to let this happen. Dammit, Sadie! I’m the one that isn’t worth a damn, but I’m willing to risk heartbreak just to try it with you.”
“I don’t hate you,” I cry. “I’m glad that you’re alive. I guess—I guess that sometimes I’m just not glad that I am.”
My first love’s heart saved my future love’s life.
"For God’s sake, Sadie, are you really going to stand here and deny me the one thing that I know I was born to do? To be? Is that what this is? Because if you are—if you insist on closing that door—I’ll be forced to tell you that facing a future without you in it is a future I want no part of. I’ll be forced to tell you that I’ll wake up every day searching for you beside me. I’ll be forced to tell you that I’ll be ruined for any other woman. Maybe I already am.”
Zander, I think we both know what I have to do. Give me time. Give me room. I’ll find my way back. -Sadie
“What is it that you were born to do, Zander?”
To mend you when the world breaks you. To keep you safe. To tell you when you’re wrong but scream to the world that you’re right. To stand beside you no matter what comes our way. To wager my next breath, against all odds if I have to, just to see you happy. To love you.”
“You’re not scared of losin’ him,” she points out softly. “You’ve already lost him and we both know that. You’re scared of findin’ you. You don’t know who you really are without Jake. I get it, okay? But you can’t stop living out of fear of what you may end up seeing.”
Zander, No amount of explaining could make what I did hurt any less. Please know that I had to do what I did. I had to leave. I never wanted to hurt you. This is Jake’s cell phone. Dial one for his voicemail. The password is the month and year of our anniversary. 1109. Just listen. In spite of myself, you are my truth. You are my constant. You are my proof of life. You are my vital sign. With you, I more than breathe—I live. Please forgive me. -Sadie
I’ve been pushed, squeezed, and cornered all the way to him. Always to him, my vital sign. “It’s a reminder that sometimes the longest route is the most rewarding,”

Vital Sign by J. L. Mac

Alexander McBride
Sadie Parker
+Jacob Parker

It’s surprising how stories with the same premise, but have been told in many different styles still send me reeling without convincing myself to appreciate it. I have seen this in movies and heard many touching stories with the themes alike yet it riveted me like i haven’t heard it before. J. L. Mac knows her way to inflict heartbreak and mend it into oblivion afterwards, she makes it impossible to get away from her books unscathed with her heartfelt writing and skillful story-telling.

'Vital Sign' is a story with a very long journey in a considerably short span of time, it is squeezed into details and abundant with raw emotions that will hold you captive like it has taken charge of another life for you. Zander and Sadie's story is dominated by grief, guilt, regret and dwelling in the past which gives them only momentary happiness. They weren't the quintessential couple and i bet no one will dare choose the path they're dealt with. However, theirs is the story that in the end will strengthen your faith to fate and believe that second chances are not so hard to find if you only seek for it wholeheartedly. And in other cases, this book can help someone who's in the same shoes as Sadie or Zander. It's truly tormenting but it was worth it.

Sadie lived by her name for more than two years after she lost her husband on a shooting incident at their very own home, she’s a very very sad and broken woman. She was self-destructing and barely living, until her and Jake’s parents forced her into meeting her deceased husband’s organ recipients thinking it will make the grieving process easier for her. But it wasn’t… it wasn’t until she met the man who now has Jake’s heart. The man who was alive and well in exchange of her husband’s death. The last man whom she should fall for, is the same key to her rebirth.

Alexander McBride feels like he did not deserve a second chance at life, but his Governor father worked his powers for him to be on top of the list of organ recipients. And now he has to deal with another guilt of meeting the widow of the man whose heart is currently beating on his chest, but Zander did not expect that she’s the woman he’s been waiting for 29 long years to be with forever.

They are both being chased by the demons of their past and while Zander is already in the midst of moving on, Sadie’s still angry of everything. Even if they find it hard to admit, they share the same struggles and for this, their need for each other is palpable. Sadie’s afraid of loving someone besides Jake, she doesn’t want to find his replacement nor rebuild memories with another man, she cannot let go of the mere fact that her and Jake’s story has come to an end. That was what put Zander’s feelings to a test and his patience consumed so he’s already preparing to deal with the heartbreak that comes with falling for Sadie. But not wanting to really let her go, he then agreed with her need for distance and time, only because she promised to find her way back to him once she’s made herself whole again.

Even if this book depressed me for the most part, i never once doubted the happy ever after. The spark of connection from their very first meeting—even before they knew what part they played in each other’s lives—gave away that this is a love story that transcended all the odds of a very strange force of fate.

While and after reading this, it’s so difficult not to want to know Jake and Sadie’s story too which is the same thing with Zander’s history. I feel like there’s so much more hidden things meant to be revealed. Either way, this book is brilliant just the standalone way that it is.

D x
——————————-
Noteworthies:

How am I supposed to let go of Jake if there are pieces of him still out there, living on in some perfect stranger?

I am utterly and completely heartbroken that I had a fairytale life and in a split second it was stolen from me.

“So that’s where I am, Sadie. I’m tired, and I’m scared, and I’m on the edge of giving in, but I’ll hold on because I know that you’ll come through this. If I could take this from you, I would. I’d take that hurt in a heartbeat. But I can’t. All I can do is push, and squeeze, and corner you until you give in and come out of this to scream to the world that you’re still here, dammit. You may be worse for the wear, but you’re still my baby girl and you made it.”

The connection I feel to this woman was so instant. I’ve never felt anything like it. Something about her, about me, about the situation that we find ourselves in—if I believed in fate, I’d say that’s exactly what it is. If fate exists, if it’s real, I would say that somehow our journeys are the same.

“Having gone through loss like that, you can kind of spot one of your kind even in a crowd. I lost my son when he was only twelve years old. I know what it’s like walking around holding on so tight to those memories because you think you may lose them.”

“Well, it’s difficult to explain but it’s like this. You can hold onto those memories, honey, but don’t hold too tight. No need for that. You hold them too tight you’ll crush ‘em, and then they get to be something ugly. Somethin’ miserable. They become something that hurts you ‘stead of something that helps you. What you don’t realize is that whether you hold onto ‘em or not, they’re still there with you. Right there in your heart. They’re a part of you. With every breath you take, those memories are alive and well and no one ‘cept God in heaven can take that from you.”

I want her body. I want her mind. I want her heart. In many ways, I feel like it’s already mine to claim. In my sick fucking head I feel like Sadie Parker has always been mine for the taking, like she was made for me, intended for me.

Alexander McBride is both my fallen angel delivering me to hell’s gate and the blinding light that serves as my guide, my deliverance to the hereafter.

Sadie Parker makes me want more. More hours in the day. More things to make her smile. More life. More of her.

Some newly discovered part of me hopes that I’m the main character in Sadie’s ending. Not her happily ever after, because she’s already had one of those, but maybe I can be her second chance at happiness. I think she could be mine. I’d bet on it.

“I’ve always prided myself on being a man who can predict things. There are no curve balls as far as I’m concerned. Everything I do, I see coming. Except you. I never expected this. I never expected you.”

“I saw you on that beach and I knew that you had to be mine. I had to have you. I knew that you were who I was looking for. I would have waited for you forever if I had to. Whether by design or just plain dumb luck, I’m the one who was meant to find all the pieces of you so that I might put them back together. Let me put you back together, Sadie. I need you,”

"I’ve been fighting against the ghost of him every goddamned day, Sadie! Every day! It’s more than I can handle. I’m not Jake! I’m no saint. I don’t lead some virtuous life full of good deeds and friends and family who would vouch for me at the drop of a hat. I’m fighting an invisible enemy that I know I have no hopes of defeating, but here I am. I’m begging you for one ounce, one fucking iota, of hope!”

"You think I don’t hate this too? You think I don’t hate that I’m not the most deserving man to get another shot at a life that I’ve already fucked up? You think I don’t feel like shit for having his heart and now falling for his wife? You’d be sorely mistaken. I hate myself for it every time I look in the mirror. Every time I close my eyes and imagine you next to me for the rest of my existence. Every time I have to resist the urge to take your hand, bring it to my lips, and swear on my life that I can make you happy given half the chance. Every time.”

“I won’t let you take the easiest, quickest route out of my life all because you’re too damn scared to let this happen. Dammit, Sadie! I’m the one that isn’t worth a damn, but I’m willing to risk heartbreak just to try it with you.”

“I don’t hate you,” I cry. “I’m glad that you’re alive. I guess—I guess that sometimes I’m just not glad that I am.”

My first love’s heart saved my future love’s life.

"For God’s sake, Sadie, are you really going to stand here and deny me the one thing that I know I was born to do? To be? Is that what this is? Because if you are—if you insist on closing that door—I’ll be forced to tell you that facing a future without you in it is a future I want no part of. I’ll be forced to tell you that I’ll wake up every day searching for you beside me. I’ll be forced to tell you that I’ll be ruined for any other woman. Maybe I already am.”

Zander, I think we both know what I have to do. Give me time. Give me room. I’ll find my way back. -Sadie

“What is it that you were born to do, Zander?”

To mend you when the world breaks you. To keep you safe. To tell you when you’re wrong but scream to the world that you’re right. To stand beside you no matter what comes our way. To wager my next breath, against all odds if I have to, just to see you happy. To love you.”

“You’re not scared of losin’ him,” she points out softly. “You’ve already lost him and we both know that. You’re scared of findin’ you. You don’t know who you really are without Jake. I get it, okay? But you can’t stop living out of fear of what you may end up seeing.”

Zander, No amount of explaining could make what I did hurt any less. Please know that I had to do what I did. I had to leave. I never wanted to hurt you. This is Jake’s cell phone. Dial one for his voicemail. The password is the month and year of our anniversary. 1109. Just listen. In spite of myself, you are my truth. You are my constant. You are my proof of life. You are my vital sign. With you, I more than breathe—I live. Please forgive me. -Sadie

I’ve been pushed, squeezed, and cornered all the way to him. Always to him, my vital sign.

“It’s a reminder that sometimes the longest route is the most rewarding,”

Read: Vital Sign by J. L. Mac

Beautiful beautiful book, i’m still working on my review.

This is why i thank the extra-long weekend because i was actually able to read three and a half books that kept me occupied while i took breaks from our movie marathon. Lazy days at home is the best vacation, if i am not able to travel somewhere cold. ;)

Read: Vital Sign by J. L. Mac

Beautiful beautiful book, i’m still working on my review.

This is why i thank the extra-long weekend because i was actually able to read three and a half books that kept me occupied while i took breaks from our movie marathon. Lazy days at home is the best vacation, if i am not able to travel somewhere cold. ;)

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Love & Misadventure is available online via Amazon, BN.com + The Book Depository and Barnes & Noble, Kinokuniya, Books Actually, Fully Booked and other good book stores worldwide. 

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Date with this nyummy Reese’s Peanut Butter Cupcake 😋 Then will go to mass after. Happy Easter! :)

Date with this nyummy Reese’s Peanut Butter Cupcake 😋 Then will go to mass after. Happy Easter! :)

Finding My Way (Beaumont Series) by Heidi McLaughlin
This series stands very close to my heart because i was enamored of Jojo and Liam’s story from the beginning that no matter what maze their relationship goes through, i am certain they’re going to find their way back together in the end. I like that particular assurance in what i read because it makes me think that it’s worth in advance while not jinxing the excitement at the same time. Heidi’s writing is what you’ll want when you peg for just a free-flowing story without so much thinking to do—simple yet engaging, cute and romantic, the conflicts jives in perfect harmony with the characters’ age and not pretentious. My kind of bedtime read.
I have one specific scene that i can recite verbatim (come on, anyone can!) when i think about this series, i have pictured it in my mind as much times as it was mentioned in the books and it is the main reason why i wish to make this series into a film. I quote:
“Hey, Jojo.”
“Yeah?”
"I’m going to marry you someday."
I LOVED THAT before and even more now that i get to read it straight from Liam’s POV. It makes my heart skip a beat everytime. <3
'Finding My Way' is Liam's side of the story starting from the time he and Jojo were the town's golden couple, his life living with his manipulative father and ghost mother, his unexpected escape from his father's well-planned American dream to following his own dreams. This is the backstory of how Liam Westbury became Liam Page.
It’s a relief to know all sides of the story and even if i didn’t get as much information from this like the other ones, im glad to have filled out some of the loopholes about Liam’s background. Like how he changed his name to Liam Page, how his band was formed, how he came up with their name, how he got involved with Sam and how has he been since he made the decision of leaving the life as Liam Westbury. We also get to know how his grandmother pushed and supported him into doing what he wants, and how her death made him doubt whether to continue or just go back to Beaumont.
I think that this will be the conclusion of this series since we’ve all heard the stories that must be told, it’s a bittersweet ending but every single installment left a good insight etched to my heart and mind.
D x—————————Noteworthies:
I see her as my wife of fifteen/twenty years and I’m confident that she sees me as her husband, but is it enough?
“I love you, Liam Page Westbury, and I don’t know why we ended up like this for the past two days, but I don’t like it. I don’t like not seeing you every day or even hearing your voice. We had a fight… our first fight and it was a big one. We’ve never even argued before and that fight was huge. I don’t know how we’re supposed to fix it, but we have to because I love you too much and I can’t live if you’re not in my life.”
"I love you Josie Preston. You own my heart. You stole a little piece of it the moment I saw you and you’ve taken the rest every day since,”
For telling me to follow only my dreams. I had been following my dad’s and a combination of Josie’s and mine and was so afraid to veer off that path because I was going to lose her. I knew I had to leave or I was going to lose myself.
If you are never scared, embarrassed or hurt, it means you never take chances.
When your heart beats for one and that one isn’t with you, nor do you know how to stop her from consuming you day in day out; what else can you do? Nothing, that’s what. Your life takes on a different meaning when you break your own heart.
"I’m rich, Liam. So fucking rich, yet I can’t have the one thing I want out of life and that’s love. I’m in love with you and at one time you were in love with me, but then you stopped. I can’t even buy your love because you’re so fucking hung up on someone who doesn’t want you. I’M RIGHT HERE IN FRONT OF YOU. And you ignore me. I made you. I made you, Liam, not her. All of this is because of me and you can’t do something as simple as love me back, yet you pine away for that brunette like she’s your dying breath. If it wasn’t for me, you wouldn’t be here right now.”
“I’m going home tomorrow – to the unknown – and I’m scared shitless. For all I know, my life is going to change and I’m going to be worse off than I am now.”

Finding My Way (Beaumont Series) by Heidi McLaughlin

This series stands very close to my heart because i was enamored of Jojo and Liam’s story from the beginning that no matter what maze their relationship goes through, i am certain they’re going to find their way back together in the end. I like that particular assurance in what i read because it makes me think that it’s worth in advance while not jinxing the excitement at the same time. Heidi’s writing is what you’ll want when you peg for just a free-flowing story without so much thinking to do—simple yet engaging, cute and romantic, the conflicts jives in perfect harmony with the characters’ age and not pretentious. My kind of bedtime read.

I have one specific scene that i can recite verbatim (come on, anyone can!) when i think about this series, i have pictured it in my mind as much times as it was mentioned in the books and it is the main reason why i wish to make this series into a film. I quote:

“Hey, Jojo.”

“Yeah?”

"I’m going to marry you someday."

I LOVED THAT before and even more now that i get to read it straight from Liam’s POV. It makes my heart skip a beat everytime. <3

'Finding My Way' is Liam's side of the story starting from the time he and Jojo were the town's golden couple, his life living with his manipulative father and ghost mother, his unexpected escape from his father's well-planned American dream to following his own dreams. This is the backstory of how Liam Westbury became Liam Page.

It’s a relief to know all sides of the story and even if i didn’t get as much information from this like the other ones, im glad to have filled out some of the loopholes about Liam’s background. Like how he changed his name to Liam Page, how his band was formed, how he came up with their name, how he got involved with Sam and how has he been since he made the decision of leaving the life as Liam Westbury. We also get to know how his grandmother pushed and supported him into doing what he wants, and how her death made him doubt whether to continue or just go back to Beaumont.

I think that this will be the conclusion of this series since we’ve all heard the stories that must be told, it’s a bittersweet ending but every single installment left a good insight etched to my heart and mind.

D x
—————————
Noteworthies:

I see her as my wife of fifteen/twenty years and I’m confident that she sees me as her husband, but is it enough?

“I love you, Liam Page Westbury, and I don’t know why we ended up like this for the past two days, but I don’t like it. I don’t like not seeing you every day or even hearing your voice. We had a fight… our first fight and it was a big one. We’ve never even argued before and that fight was huge. I don’t know how we’re supposed to fix it, but we have to because I love you too much and I can’t live if you’re not in my life.”

"I love you Josie Preston. You own my heart. You stole a little piece of it the moment I saw you and you’ve taken the rest every day since,”

For telling me to follow only my dreams. I had been following my dad’s and a combination of Josie’s and mine and was so afraid to veer off that path because I was going to lose her. I knew I had to leave or I was going to lose myself.

If you are never scared, embarrassed or hurt, it means you never take chances.

When your heart beats for one and that one isn’t with you, nor do you know how to stop her from consuming you day in day out; what else can you do? Nothing, that’s what. Your life takes on a different meaning when you break your own heart.

"I’m rich, Liam. So fucking rich, yet I can’t have the one thing I want out of life and that’s love. I’m in love with you and at one time you were in love with me, but then you stopped. I can’t even buy your love because you’re so fucking hung up on someone who doesn’t want you. I’M RIGHT HERE IN FRONT OF YOU. And you ignore me. I made you. I made you, Liam, not her. All of this is because of me and you can’t do something as simple as love me back, yet you pine away for that brunette like she’s your dying breath. If it wasn’t for me, you wouldn’t be here right now.”

“I’m going home tomorrow – to the unknown – and I’m scared shitless. For all I know, my life is going to change and I’m going to be worse off than I am now.”

Out of the Shallows (Into the Deep #2) by Samantha Young

Jake
Charley
*Claudia, Beck
*Andie, Rick
*Lowe, Matt, Denver (The Stolen)

I think that due to the long interval of this book’s release since the first, I got literally lost in Jake and Charley’s story. The things i remember were blurred and i had to do a bit of rereading to catch up. At first i thought i wasn’t going to finish this because i felt sort of disconnected, like i don’t understand their story anymore. However, i had to stick with it for the sake of the benefit of the doubt. And in the end, after a series of superficial chaos, i was satisfied with the conclusion of their story. Maybe if we will be getting more of them, i prefer it to be a lot mature and a pure story of love in its third chance.

Jake and Charley’s relationship was tested many times by fate, from them needing to be together but people around them make it so difficult to achieve. This book is yet another story of Charley’s unending goal of fixing everything, sacrificing her own happiness and meeting at a compromise after getting out of the shallows.

I don’t like Charley so much in this book, because even if she tries to be selfless and giving, she has irrational reasons for doing so. She’s charming and really brave, but she can’t practice what she preaches. She’s a good friend, a considerate daughter and a really loving sister and i adore her for that but she sucks at being a lover. I was too sad for Jake mostly that i just want to be the one to knock some sense into her, i never really understood why this book started with them broken up and that was the major punch in the gut.

Charley’s story revolved around the divine pact she’s made during the most difficult time of her as a little sister. A pact that ruined her second chance with Jake and her dreams of being a cop put on hold. That part sort of mended my disagreement with Her character, i understood why she lived her life conforming with the bargain she’s made which is something she just cannot tell anyone for fear of breaking the pact. It was preposterous, but i think i saw myself doing the same thing if im in her shoes.

Of course when Charley’s the one being so impossible, some people must take the place of good samaritans—that was Jake, Claudia and Beck. It was Jake’s time to grow up, adjust to Charley’s needs and never make her feel alone. Claudia and Beck were there to ease things up, bring in some fun, and sometimes engage in a heart-to-heart talk with Charley that usually strikes a valid point. I love the friendship that was formed in this book but what i love more are the people who were changed by the circumstances for the better, who were tested by fate and never gave up even if they took the longest road to reach where they want to be. I made a sensible decision to stick with this book because whether i like to admit or not, Charley and Jake made their way back to my heart and claimed a part of it.

Is it so bad though that while i was reading how Charley tells her and Jake’s story, i am mentally forming Beck and Claudia’s world too? Oftentimes than i should, in fact. I really am intrigued by their story and i hope we’d be given that privilege soon.

I like this book and i bet all the readers who haven’t put their hands on ‘Into the Deep’ yet will love this more because they could instantly grab ‘Out of the Shallows’ next. ;)

D x
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Noteworthies:

I’m me. I’m just not yesterday’s me.

I can’t fix those mistakes, Charley. Even though it kills me that I’ve done things to hurt you, meant or not, I can’t take them away. I can’t undo it. But I can promise you this… no one will ever mean to me what you do.

If you save her, I’ll give him up. If Andie wakes up, I’ll let Jake go. I’ll choose her over him.
“I love you,” I told him softly. “I love you so much. But I can’t be with you.”

Everything that’s happened to us. Brett’s death. Me breaking up with you. The shit we went through to find each other again only for your parents and sister not to forgive me like you did. You stopped talking to Andie because of it, Andie got in an accident, you blamed yourself, you made a pact with God and now have this irrational fear, irrational but real nonetheless, which means you’re afraid we can’t be together.
“I know, I know. Your fear.” He sighed and sat back in his seat. “We can’t be together until you work it out, Charley. We can’t be together until you work it all out. Your sister, your parents, your career—you. Go home and face your sister, Supergirl.” He brought my hand to his mouth and pressed a gentle kiss upon my knuckles. “Go home and find yourself. Take all the time you need. And when you’re done and if you still want me,” he gave me a sad, crooked, boyish smile, “come and find me.”
“You won’t because it’s not about going back. It was never about going back. It was about doing something, anything, but standing still. You did that. You came to me even though you were petrified of the outcome. So now… it’s about moving forward and growing up.” She kissed my forehead. “It sucks at first, but it gets better.”
“Not to be a shit, Charley, but you’re twenty-one. We’re all trying to figure stuff out at twenty-one. You think you’re the only one who has a crisis of identity in college? You’re not. And it doesn’t mean you should put the important stuff on hold.”

"Because,” I tried to explain, “if we do this a third time, we both better be sure. Right now, I’m still trying to figure other stuff out."
Somehow the most miraculous person I ever met in my life has spent most of her life feeling unloved and neglected. She deserves to feel like no girl in the world could ever come close to her. I want her to feel that way every fucking day, and I can’t do that if I’m on tour.

It’s called sacrifice or compromise or whatever you want to name it. It boils down to one thing—what we’re willing to give up for the people we love. I thought you of all people would understand, Charley. You gave up the academy for your parents. And I get it, I do. They are what matters. What’s the point in the memories I’ll have of touring if at the end of my life, Claudia isn’t by my side? What’s the point if the person I love the most never made enough memories with me to make me feel okay about my life coming to an end? My dad had no one in the end. I don’t want that to be my story too. You understand that, right?
Yeah. The people we love are one of our dreams too. Sometimes you just can’t chase them all. So you’ve got to choose.
“A guitar won’t keep me warm at night, so something’s got to give.”

I had to make a decision and I didn’t have the luxury of time. Jake’s heart couldn’t take much more, and mine needed to learn how to cope with all the craziness that came with loving someone as much as I loved Jacob Caplin. I was fearful. But I was also excited and ready to do this, no matter if I was walking into a lifetime of drama, or a moment of rejection that would live with me forever. I was going to do this, unknown be damned.

“I take you up there, though, you’ve got to promise me it’s forever. And mean it this time.”
I crossed my heart. “Forever.”

Out of the Shallows (Into the Deep #2) by Samantha Young

Jake
Charley
*Claudia, Beck
*Andie, Rick
*Lowe, Matt, Denver (The Stolen)

I think that due to the long interval of this book’s release since the first, I got literally lost in Jake and Charley’s story. The things i remember were blurred and i had to do a bit of rereading to catch up. At first i thought i wasn’t going to finish this because i felt sort of disconnected, like i don’t understand their story anymore. However, i had to stick with it for the sake of the benefit of the doubt. And in the end, after a series of superficial chaos, i was satisfied with the conclusion of their story. Maybe if we will be getting more of them, i prefer it to be a lot mature and a pure story of love in its third chance.

Jake and Charley’s relationship was tested many times by fate, from them needing to be together but people around them make it so difficult to achieve. This book is yet another story of Charley’s unending goal of fixing everything, sacrificing her own happiness and meeting at a compromise after getting out of the shallows.

I don’t like Charley so much in this book, because even if she tries to be selfless and giving, she has irrational reasons for doing so. She’s charming and really brave, but she can’t practice what she preaches. She’s a good friend, a considerate daughter and a really loving sister and i adore her for that but she sucks at being a lover. I was too sad for Jake mostly that i just want to be the one to knock some sense into her, i never really understood why this book started with them broken up and that was the major punch in the gut.

Charley’s story revolved around the divine pact she’s made during the most difficult time of her as a little sister. A pact that ruined her second chance with Jake and her dreams of being a cop put on hold. That part sort of mended my disagreement with Her character, i understood why she lived her life conforming with the bargain she’s made which is something she just cannot tell anyone for fear of breaking the pact. It was preposterous, but i think i saw myself doing the same thing if im in her shoes.

Of course when Charley’s the one being so impossible, some people must take the place of good samaritans—that was Jake, Claudia and Beck. It was Jake’s time to grow up, adjust to Charley’s needs and never make her feel alone. Claudia and Beck were there to ease things up, bring in some fun, and sometimes engage in a heart-to-heart talk with Charley that usually strikes a valid point. I love the friendship that was formed in this book but what i love more are the people who were changed by the circumstances for the better, who were tested by fate and never gave up even if they took the longest road to reach where they want to be. I made a sensible decision to stick with this book because whether i like to admit or not, Charley and Jake made their way back to my heart and claimed a part of it.

Is it so bad though that while i was reading how Charley tells her and Jake’s story, i am mentally forming Beck and Claudia’s world too? Oftentimes than i should, in fact. I really am intrigued by their story and i hope we’d be given that privilege soon.

I like this book and i bet all the readers who haven’t put their hands on ‘Into the Deep’ yet will love this more because they could instantly grab ‘Out of the Shallows’ next. ;)

D x

——————————-
Noteworthies:

I’m me. I’m just not yesterday’s me.

I can’t fix those mistakes, Charley. Even though it kills me that I’ve done things to hurt you, meant or not, I can’t take them away. I can’t undo it. But I can promise you this… no one will ever mean to me what you do.

If you save her, I’ll give him up. If Andie wakes up, I’ll let Jake go. I’ll choose her over him.

“I love you,” I told him softly. “I love you so much. But I can’t be with you.”

Everything that’s happened to us. Brett’s death. Me breaking up with you. The shit we went through to find each other again only for your parents and sister not to forgive me like you did. You stopped talking to Andie because of it, Andie got in an accident, you blamed yourself, you made a pact with God and now have this irrational fear, irrational but real nonetheless, which means you’re afraid we can’t be together.

“I know, I know. Your fear.” He sighed and sat back in his seat. “We can’t be together until you work it out, Charley. We can’t be together until you work it all out. Your sister, your parents, your career—you. Go home and face your sister, Supergirl.” He brought my hand to his mouth and pressed a gentle kiss upon my knuckles. “Go home and find yourself. Take all the time you need. And when you’re done and if you still want me,” he gave me a sad, crooked, boyish smile, “come and find me.”

“You won’t because it’s not about going back. It was never about going back. It was about doing something, anything, but standing still. You did that. You came to me even though you were petrified of the outcome. So now… it’s about moving forward and growing up.” She kissed my forehead. “It sucks at first, but it gets better.”

“Not to be a shit, Charley, but you’re twenty-one. We’re all trying to figure stuff out at twenty-one. You think you’re the only one who has a crisis of identity in college? You’re not. And it doesn’t mean you should put the important stuff on hold.”

"Because,” I tried to explain, “if we do this a third time, we both better be sure. Right now, I’m still trying to figure other stuff out."

Somehow the most miraculous person I ever met in my life has spent most of her life feeling unloved and neglected. She deserves to feel like no girl in the world could ever come close to her. I want her to feel that way every fucking day, and I can’t do that if I’m on tour.

It’s called sacrifice or compromise or whatever you want to name it. It boils down to one thing—what we’re willing to give up for the people we love. I thought you of all people would understand, Charley. You gave up the academy for your parents. And I get it, I do. They are what matters. What’s the point in the memories I’ll have of touring if at the end of my life, Claudia isn’t by my side? What’s the point if the person I love the most never made enough memories with me to make me feel okay about my life coming to an end? My dad had no one in the end. I don’t want that to be my story too. You understand that, right?

Yeah. The people we love are one of our dreams too. Sometimes you just can’t chase them all. So you’ve got to choose.

“A guitar won’t keep me warm at night, so something’s got to give.”

I had to make a decision and I didn’t have the luxury of time. Jake’s heart couldn’t take much more, and mine needed to learn how to cope with all the craziness that came with loving someone as much as I loved Jacob Caplin. I was fearful. But I was also excited and ready to do this, no matter if I was walking into a lifetime of drama, or a moment of rejection that would live with me forever. I was going to do this, unknown be damned.

“I take you up there, though, you’ve got to promise me it’s forever. And mean it this time.”
I crossed my heart. “Forever.”

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